Urgh. Bum bum bum. That's how I feel today.

My mother is bloody useless and won't help me with booking a hotel for thursday - found a hotel blah blah but we can't book it as we only have an electron card which they don't take, and you have to pay in advance. SO what are we supposed to do? Thought she might for once come through and help me when I needed it.

Matt went to the pawn shop place and they only give you about a quarter of the retail value for items, and you have to pay 30% interest on them to buy them back so a complete gay. BUT what else can we do? The most valuable things we have are my digital camera which I need for taking pics for ebay to make more money, and my slr and lenses which I wanted to take with me to Cornwall to take pictures in order to amuse myself. Plus I don't trust the grubby pawn barons with it. So. What the fuck do we do? We have one day left to find the cash, about £200, find a way to book the hotel and stuff. It's a bloody nightmare.

Apparently Truro School have already put the expenses cheque in the post although it was delayed because the retards put a spelling mistake in his name on it, but that's no good to us as it hasn't arrived yet. If it comes tomorrow I'll have to go into town specially (that's another £3.50) to take it to Matt so he can cash it, or if it comes on thursday matt will have to go into bury first thing to cash it - but that's cutting it a bit bloody fine ain't it? GOD this is so stressful, I'm trying to keep a level head but it's a bit fucking hard given the circumstances. If we can't even get down there for the interview how is Matt supposed to get a job and how are we supposed to pay our rent come september? Tell me. TELL ME. See? You can't because there is no correct answer.

I am going to sit here in a tizz and do this face :( until it is all better.